Admittedly, I’ve been a little quiet as of late.  Especially in regards to the happenings in Can You Keep A Secret.  I have nothing to hide.  I just have a lot to say and I want to say it all the right way because it’s currently lodged in my head like an old, worn down, unsolved, jig-saw puzzle.

Alright, let me give this a shot.

This band started from the remains of two previous bands.  We didn’t choose eachother as members.  That decision was made for us.  I don’t think I could have chosen anyone better if I tried.  At that time - that is what was meant for us.  We needed it.

Since that first night in our studio in Asbury Park things have changed one hundred times over.

We’ve seen the country inside and out from the windows of a blue 1996 Dodge Ram Van 3500.  We’ve played stages we only saw in our head - we only saw in our dreams - we only thought of in our highest of hopes.  We played to so many different faces from so many different places.

Night in and night out, we gave it 100%.  At every turn we made the decisions we needed to get our band and our music to the next level.  In retrospect - every decision was correct.

If I had the opportunity to go back and start over, I would change nothing.  Call me crazy, go ahead.  But I truly would not change a thing because if I did, who would I be today?  I’m thankful for the person this band has help created.

The lessons I’ve learned from Can You Keep A Secret and it’s triumphs and ordeals are invaluable.  The highs showed me what life can be about and the lows introduced me to reality, time and time again.

And I experienced it all with my three best friends:  John, Josh, and Dan.

Boy, you fella’s have a lot of spunk.

How many times would it have been easier to give up?  How many times were you told “it won’t work out”, “get a real job”, “your band SUCKS”?  I bet you can’t count it on your fingers and toes.  How many times did we turn to a friend for some food money?  How about one more cigarrette or a lighter?  Or maybe some of that precious water?  How about sleeping on a bench seat?  No better spot in the van!

When the sun was unforgiving all day and the night brought no comfort - we only had eachother.  When we were done wrong by countless amount of people through the years, we did not waiver.

There was something in these past years that made all of this worth it.  There was a genuine passion for life, true friendship, and love.  And I know for a fact that there are a ton of people that will never have any of those things in life - but at least 4 people had all three.

Let’s not be nieve though.  Nothing lasts forever.  We will all live for some time; some longer than others, but it will all eventually end.  So what makes my life with Can You Keep A Secret any different?  That life is over for me.  I’m sure you want to know why, and the best reason I can give you is that it just is.  Just how this band came together - it is ending in the same fashion.  It just is.  Just like this life will eventually end - it just will.  Maybe you can list the reasons on a long hospital sheet - but at the end of the night none of that matters - it just happens.  But until then, I plan on living as well as I can.

Trust me, I’m scared.  I’ve given this band my whole entire life.  But it gave me plenty in return.  But now the unfortunate truth has arrived and my time with Can You Keep A Secret is over.

However anyone in this whole entire world may look at it, in my mind, we succeeded.  If someone asks if I’ve ever been in a band that “made it”, I’ll tell them yes.  This isn’t me going through denial.  No, this is me giving you some truth.  I made music with my best friends and toured the ENTIRE country and played to thousands of people and sold thousands of records.

Man, I made it.

And if I can look back on my life with as much pride and joy I get when I look back on my life with Can You Keep A Secret, then Man, I made it.

Thank you to every single person that supported Can You Keep A Secret in any way.  Whether it was buying a T-shirt or just humming our song in your head, we thank you from the depths of our hearts.  You helped us live a dream that we never had to wake from.

Sincerely,

Alan Scarpa