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where am i i dont know i just know this post will be as jumbled and fucked up as my insides feel at the moment so i will gladly set aside punctuation and proper spelling and grammar for the moment since life has put aside all logic for me too at the moment but come on who cares right we are so young wreckless careless and soulless i bet you think that and i bet i knew that just like i knew a lot just like i knew everything i know nothing the truth is you know nothing can we accept that or lets reject that ill put on one of my new hats the one that i can hide under yet my heart has been plundered robbed shot and wait what am i talking about i dont know it doesnt seem quite real not quite tangible let me go ok im alone for the first time for the fiirst time but hey its ok you will get over it im alright you will be over it im over it so over it and now on the floor and under the boards just let it flow just let it flow and watch it go there it goes i wont lie but i will and it hurts the most and first off im worse off and now the world has one more dark organ to add to its collection one more stunned soul one more wreck to add to the pile but atleast im not alone i can crawl and scrape for pity like the rest and just trust it will all be ok while i wait and hate and hate and wait have you ever felt this yes you the one reading this right now the one who got this far and not tangled in the web of confusion and misconception and destruction of all logical function are you still here if so then are you with me are you here with me in this desolate ground where theres only one thing left and thats the sound babe the sound of my heart beating so desperately and hopefully with the beat of my dream and the beat of my yours and my ours and hours that was spent planning the then not now i bet one hundred chips and triple sandwhichces on the outcome of this tale with one shake of my spear i see where this is going nowhere this is going nowhere my life will go everywhere my body will have a hard time though cause i know my heart will be left behind keeping its hopeful beat its hopeful beat but it never knows when to quit when its beat and are you here do you hear are you ok i hope but i dont know so this collage of words goes out to you the lovely reader whoever you may be as much as this array of characters is about you it is also about you and you and me and i so the close ended question to the one who read this far is do you know what i mean i hope not cause i know how it is
3 years ago